Oh No… No no no no no… !!!!!

Life can really be very hard sometimes.I had gotten to be quite good friends with M over the past few months. It helps that she truly loves Ben. I mean, she loves him for who he is, not in the way that D is interested in him like he's some kind of experiment...

The other day, M came over to my place. It was a little surprising to see her without makeup. She looks so different... sort of, younger and easier to talk to.I learnt a little bit more about M today. It turns out that she has quite an awful family life. Apparently, her parents quarrel with each other all the time and her mother actually told her that she wished that she had not given birth to M!!! Can you believe that?! I mean, it has GOT to be TERRIBLE to hear that from your own mother.When M was cuddling Ben and telling him how much she loves him and how she is going to have lots of babies when she grows up, and love them with all her heart, I suddenly realised something - M has never been loved at all by her parents. I think she's always hanging around with boys because she wants any kind of love that she can get, even if it is not REAL love. I'm starting to understand why M behaves like a flirt...

Are you ready for the huge bomb that is going to come next? Well, get ready : M LIKES TONY TOO!!!!! She told me!!!

Yeah... I feel like my heart has just dropped down to the bottom of my stomach. There is no way I can have a chance with Tony now. M is so much better with boys as compared with me. If she decides to chase Tony, she will definitely win. Although I was disappointed, M is still my friend after all. I don't hate her at all for liking Tony.

I did take Ben away from her so that I could feed him his milk myself. It doesn't matter too much if she likes Tony. Nobody will ever take Ben away from me. He is MY brother!

Heartbrokenly,
Anna.